Life..

I been thinking a lot about life, my life and what I'm making of it. I'm going to be a mother in less than two weeks and am I ready? I have no idea. I'm doing my best not to panic, cry, and even be extremely nervous. I pray that those motherly instincts kick in, I pray I'm able to be the best mother for my child and that she's treated with and given all the love she needs.

I wonder about life and look back at my life and what I haven't finished, what I still want to do and I wonder is it selfish to still want all that. Especially with everything coming up this month. It's going to be full of challenges for my little family because we are packing, moving to a house in a unknown area, and having a new addition to family, while I also take some online courses.

I feel like I had so much that I could have done and didn't, due to my lack of motivation, laziness, and some obstacles I either couldn't get past or I stopped trying to conquer and now with a new baby coming I wonder what else i will or will not do? This life wont be about me anymore it is about my husband and my newborn child. I will devote myself to husband fully and my sweet baby Grace and her needs because I want her to have everything I didn't and to have positive people in her life. I wan't her to do everything I couldn't and to be happy with life, all life little things...

I pray our Lord helps me be the wife I need to be and the mother my child deserves. I'm still new to all of this but it will be a journey I take...through the good and the bad because of the love I have for my family.